Congratulations Canada...Miss Universe 2005

(For the record I did not watch the pagent)

Your stinkin' resolution Is no type of solution

Preventin' me from freedom Maintainin' your pollution

I won't support your lie no more I won't even try no more

If I have to die, oh Lord That's how I choose to live

I won't be compromised no more I can't be victimised no more

I just don't sympathize no more Cuz now I understand

You just wanna use me You say "love" then abuse me You never thought you'd loose me

But how quickly we forget That nothin' is for certain

You thought I'd stay here hurtin' Your guilt trip's just not workin'

Repressin' me to death

Cuz now I'm choosin' life, yo I take the sacrifice, yo

If everything must go, then go That's how I choose to live

No more compromises I see past your diguises

Blindin' through mind control Stealin' my eternal soul

Appealin' through material To keep me as your slave

See, what you see is what you get Oh, and you ain't seen nothin' yet

Oh, I don't care if you're upset I could care less if you're upset

See it don't change the truth And your hurt feeling's no excuse

To keep me in this box Psychological locks

Repressin' true expression

Cementin' this repression

Promotin' mass deception

So that no one can be healed

I don't respect your system I won't protect your system

When you talk I don't listen Oh, let my Father's will be done

I've just accepted what you said Keepin' me among the dead

The only way to know Is to walk then learn and grow

But faith is not your speed Oh, you've had everyone believed

That you're the sole authority

Just follow the majority

Afraid to face reality

The system is a joke

Oh, you'd be smart to save your soul Oh, when escape is mind control

You spent your life in sacrificeTo a system for the dead

Oh, are you sure... Where is the passion in this living

Are you sure it's God you servin' Obligated to a system

Getting less then you're deserving Who made up these schools,

I say Who made up these rules, I say Animal conditioning Oh, just to keep us as a slave

Oh, just get out Of this social purgatory

Just get out All these traditions are alive

Just get outSuperstition killing freedom

Knowin' my condition Is the reason I must die

Just get out Just get out Just get out

Let's get out Let's get out

Knowin' my condition Is the reason I must die

Just get out

This poem was written by one of the youths here in Victoria while in the prayer room...

everytime I close my eyes to pray
you're there
everytime I feel scared I see you
you're there
everytime I bow down in pain
you're there
everytime life starts to fall
you're there
everytime I am in pain I think of all the pain you went through for me

Today we were doing some outreach and we met a Granny, serisously she was no younger then 60 years old with 3...I repeat THREE facial piercings

I have found out I am allergic to fake tatoos...well the glue in fake tattoos....I was wearing a fake tattoo this weekend, and it was really ichy, and now my skin is all red and rashy (attractive I know) where this tattoo was...I can now add this to my allergy list...

• kiwi
• melon
• cats
• and fake tatoo glue

And I did what I never thought I would do...I cried in a chick flick!!! Please make fun of me!! It was the notebook...I couldnt help it!

If you thought 17 hours was a long day....thats nothing to the day I pulled today!

Today was a good ol' 36 hour day!
9-12 Woke up, devotions
12-1 Served at the ARC
1-5 Did some final work for the weekend
6-7 Prayer
7pm Friday-7pm Saturday (24 hours!) Hung out with a bunch of teens, worshiping, preaching, salvation seekers, holiness seekers, playing games, doing outreach, got sunburnt again (it was29 degrees outstide!)
7-9 BBQ at one of the teens houses


Now Im going to bed...good night.

Thortin and Jewels

I made a friend today. Thortin is her name. She is beautiful. A shy girl, but broke out of her shell after a few minutes. I started talking to her because she had a crow on her head. Yup...I real live crow...her crows name is Jewels (its a little freaky when you think about it) this crow had blue eyes...they were nice eyes. I touched the bird. I then washed my hands. This crow was from the wild, Thortin rescued it, and the crow hasnt left her since. Its like a friend always carrying around a rat, but this time it was a bird, come on does that make anyone else cring...a crow, just planting itself on some chicks head. Theres some witchcraft involved...but hey Ive got my sheild up high, and besides Thortin is really sweet...she may be a witch, but she's still great.

What Is Wrong With Me?

I need healing, but I dont want it.
I need community, but I dont want it.
I need deliverance, but I dont want it.
I need freedom, but I dont want it.
I need to be loved, but I dont want to recieve it.

What is wrong with me!!!! How can I know what I need to experience true life, yet be so stubborn as not to want it??? How can I still walk in sensitivity to the Holy Spirit when I am choosing to suffer??? How can I be completely fine at the same time as this is all going on??? How can I offer this stuff to people, but turn around and ignore its need in my life???

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

I just pulled a 17 hour day!!! I love those!!! (Im actually serious)

7am-Woke up, devotions
9am-Went to buy stuff for this weekend
10am-Did some evangelism downtown (with fruit-PTL)
11am-Prayer walked to the corps
1130-Started preping for class tonight, making flyers, set up the prayer room some more...etc
1pm-Moved my prep to the outdoors where I got nicely burnt in the process! Hallelujah and started on some projects for the upcoming weeks
3pm-Went to pick up some more stuff for an outreach this weekend
4pm-Ended up prayer driving (like prayer walking but in a vehicle) becuase I got a tad turned around
5pm-Continued some work at the corps
6pm-Finished the prayer room
7pm-Taught a bunch of teens about prayer and fasting
8pm-Hung around with a bunch of teens...jamming, small talk...I was the cool one everyone stuck around to hang out with instead of running off home after Bible Study. Let me say that again...Bible Study was over, these kids usually leave right away....oh friends not today...today they all hung around by..."my office"...and we hung out...it was sweet
9pm-But unfortunatly I had a meeting so, our haning out was cut short.
10pm-Visiting a sick friend and discussing the turn of events of tomorow evening
11pm-Still seeking the Lord for direction on tomorow night
12pm-Still planning tomorows events
1230-We realise the time and decide to pack it in for the evening (This is what happens when a co-leader happens to be your friend!)

The Featured

This is a girl who I have known for a while but did not know personally until summer I dont remember? haha somewhere between 2001 and2004, the start of a great friendship. Let me set the scene for ya...It was near the end of June and it was some summer working at Camp Sunrise. Staff training was in effect at the time, and during the break between sessions, a few of us were sitting at a picnic table including Andrea. We were relatively silent, just kinda enjoying the weather, and then at that moment it happened...(i cant think of anything funny to add here), but it was a good laugh shared with Andrea Brown im sure. From then, I realized I had a lot in common with Andrea, we came across more than a few coincidences and had many for them.

I share a philosophy with Andrea, and that is that...
We enjoy a friends blog then copy and paste it, and add a twist in an attempt to be funny.
We live in Victoria.
We lead youth groups, and agree that living above reproach and living with higher expectations is imparative.
We agree that Christians judge too much.
I write a "featured" article and she'll leave a comment (its a win win situation).
I keep it real, cuz your keeping it real as well.

I like being friends with Andrea because not only do we share a lot of things in common, but she shows me respect and listens, she doesn't force her opinion on you rather she ask for yours. Andrea takes time to think and evaluate a situation without compromising herself. She's the kind of girl who would take time to chill, see some sweet sight and admire God's creation. When I talk to Andrea, I'm talking to Andrea. I'm not talking to someone hiding behind a mask, because she's going to want to give whoever she's talking to the real Andrea. Andrea has always been real with me and thats why I have never wanted to give her anything but the real Nicole. Here's to you Andrea....raise your glasses everyone.

(For the original check out www.r1seabove.blogspot.com) He's got some good stuff there.

4 Things

THING NUMBER ONE
So a few nights ago I had this dream of me on the lower level of a double decker bus talking with this lady in a pink shirt named Patricia. So I pray into it and recieve instruction to position myself on the lower level of the next time I am on a double decker bus. (Everytime I go on a double decker I go to the top, a) its cool b) I dont like the bottem) So today was the first time I had opportunity to go on a double decker since this dream. I get on, position myself in the back on the bottem, and lo and behold this lady in a pink shirt from my dream is there. So what do I do with this. I said nothing, but is that right...should I have said something...but really what do I say? "So, Patricia, I dont know you, and I bet you are freaked out cuz somehow I know your name, I had a dream about meeting you the other night." Thats weird...advice welcomed!

THING NUMBER TWO
Well I was asked to speak at a Ladies Bible Study at Victoria Citidal today. It was really sweet. Jonathan Evans and Aaron White, if you guys even read my blog, the ladies all say hi to you.

THING NUMBER THREE
Is wanting to sin a sin?

THING NUMBER FOUR
Define jelousy. Is it wishing you had something someone else has. And is that really that bad. Define envy. Is it wishing the other person didnt have what you want. Where does being jeslous cross the line into envy. And when does jelosy become a sin...

Take Up Your Cross And Follow Me

Well if you read my last post (which was only like a couple hours ago) you would know that I am setting up a prayer room.

So in the process of setting the room up. And I asked the Holy Spirit how He would like the room to be set up. Amung other things, He wanted the cross. You know, that big 8 foot tall cross your church building or corps may have? And to have a place for repentance and burden lifting. Ya know the write your worry, bondage, sin on a paper, rip it up and place it at the foot of the cross. So Im carrying this 8 foot wooden cross to where the prayer room was being set up. Now this cross wasnt, that heavy, infact quite light compared to the one Jesus carried Im sure, and 8 feet is probally minimal to what the hieght actually was...but I got a small physical taste of what the verse "take up your cross and follow me" truely means. It was powerful. I ended up carrying longer then I needed to, in worship to our King.

I have had an interesting day. (By reading my previous post, this will make more sence)
It began in the spirit, having great spirit led devotions. Then I sinned and that for lack of better words 'high' left and I felt like crap. Then I repented...and was for lack of better words 'normal', then I was setting up a prayer room and got all spirit filled again....when will this end!

When will I choose to be obedient enough to the Spirit and be "in the spirit" or be "spirit filled" all the time! When will I live out Jesus' words "For those who truely love me will obey my commands"! When will I stop living on an emotional and spiritual roller coster and be focused on the High King! Why not now! Why cant I do it now! Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!1

Life Since Saturday

Sunday: Excellant Sunday Morning Meeting. Convicting Sermon. Holiness Pitch. Fruitful Response. A Prophetic Word spoken and received by the body. Good Times.

Sunday Afternoon: Spent the day with one of the teens.

Sunday Night: Spent in intersession.

Monday Morning: Woke up at 10am! Woohoo

Monday Afternoon: Had a planning meeting for this upcoming weekend. We are putting on a prayer and fasting weekend for World Visions 30 hour famine for the youth groups of Victoria's Salvation Army. Should be good times...Im preaching so your prayers are covited.

Monday Night: Spent the night with another teen...seriously all I do is youth work...Im in love!

Tuesday Morning: Woke up at 10am! Woohoo...I know I need to get my schedule back on track...but hey Im not complaining either...Im not going to lie to you, I enjoy sleeping in! Had some powerful devotions, and I lost all sense of time...its a good thing I set my own schedual becuase I got lost in the spirit and would have been late for something, if I had some where to be at a spesific time.

Tuesday Afternoon: Still in the spirit. Then I went for a walk. Then typical enemy schemes I experienced warfar and temptation, and yeilded to it. Which really sucked cuz, not only did I choose death over life, but less then 15 minutes earlier I had such a great time with the Lord. Then I went to my office (I love saying that!) at the corps...and did some repentance and prophetic clensing acts. Then got to work. And I have been on the computer all day making flyers and brochures, and now I am procrastinating by writing this blog. Well, not really beucase I cant get the printer to work, so I will just save what Ive done. After this blog I will be setting up a prayer room in the corps for this weekend...should be swell!

Well friends, thats all for now. More to come Im sure!
Please leave comments!

The Bonfires Outcome

Well friends, turns out we had to move the bonfire indoors shorty after arival due to a wind storm...so unfortunitly (or fortunitly) we didnt end up discovering the youth groups reaction to the street kids accompanyment afterall.

And Jason Brown fell out of a hammock.

It's A Lovely Day In The Neighborhood

What a random day.

It began with an awakening from the Holy Spirit at 5am then an awakening from Andy Hunter at 8am. Then I went to another nursing home and led some songs and gave a message...it was tough. Then I went to the Salvation Army soup kitchen and served. Then one of the guys that went through the line was someone I knew from living in the Downtown Eastside of Vancouver, which was pretty neat. Then I went and hung out at the equivilant of Openhiemer Park and met a bunch of cool teens. Becuase I am new to town 2 of them, Dicky, who is a homosexual and quite frankly proud of it, and Thompson who is a chick and just moved here herself about two months ago took me for a tour of downtown Victoria, it was really nice...I invited them to a bonfire we, Victoria Citidal and High Points youth groups, are having...which they seemed quite interested in attending. Which will turn out quite humerous if they do, becuase its like this you see, Thompson and Dicky will more likely then not bring a bunch of friends along with some alcohal and narcotics and the two youth groups will be playing stella stella olla or something. Ill let you know of the outcome tomorow. Then I went to the mall, and looked at a bunch of stuff, but then relised I have no money and left the mall and went home on a double decker bus. And tonight Im going to watch some movies with a few teens...which really is a sacrifice on my part becuase I DISPISE movies!!!! Ahhh what a waste of time...but hey its all kingdom eh! Haha
It was a good day.

To Be Continued

Im sorry to say it, but there will be no Cameron Kid Quote of the day for a few weeks. The Corps Officers and the boys are going to Toronto.

But do not fear, Robbie and Ben will be back with some halarious comments in the near future.

Cameron Kid Quote Of The Day

"Im going to call you a molecule" Robbie Cameron Age 5

Cameron Kid Quote Of The Day

"Its turning hot so we should get ice cream" Robbie Cameron Age 5

(We were driving, the normal answer would be roll down the window)

Today

Today I held a 6 week old while talking to a 101 year old.

Today I was praying with an 80 year old speaking in tounges to my left and a 7 year old bowing down with their forhead to the ground on my right.

Cameron Kid Quote Of The Day

The Corps Officers kids here in Victoria are wonderful and say the funniest things...each day I will delight you in one of their classic lines...

Todays is...

"Sometimes I choke when I swallow pokey spiders"
Benjamin Cameron Age 3

That Was Then, This Is Now

Some of you I have lived with for the past year, some of you I saw on a regular basis, and some of you I talked to once in a while. The one thing you all have in common is you have all asked me what had been bothering me lately. Well heres the thing...bear with me, Im not much for volnerability....

The past 12 months have been crazy. Last spring I was doing very well. I was super close to God, I was in authentic community, and I was in constant growth and revelation. The summer was awesome, made good friendships better, and learned so much while walking in leadership at camp. The fall came and I grew alot during the first few months of the War College, but then stuff that I had kept bottled down, real deep began to surface becuase, hey thats what community does, and the Lord was entereing me into a season of refining and healing. James 5 says "Confess your sins to eachother and you will be healed" I didnt do that, and I wasnt being healed...I also mastered avoiding community, and dealing with some of the stuff I was dealing with was extra difficult because I was doing it alone.

Turns out, the root of all my anger, rebellion, fear, pride, shame, etc was rejection. I have alot of rejection issues...Im not going to go into them all, but they root back to my fetus days, and the topper of all my pain was in grade 7 I was ditched by all my friends, and I turned to addiction which clearly didnt heal me of rejection issues, only added to them...but identifying the weight that has been pulling me down has been helpful because now I can trade it for the light burden Jesus has to offer.

Why this sudden change? Ive been stuck in this rut of heavyness and wearyness for the last few months, only to feel a difference now. Well the simple answer is definetly moving to Victoria... Like what I mean is its been less then 24 hours since the Lord revealed some of my rejection issues, and allready He has placed me in a place where Im being showered with acceptance, and He has personally brought me into a place where I am able to receive it... But simply, my issue is rejection, and the opposite spirit of acceptance, has proven effective.

Well, thats probally the first and last time you may ever here my personal issues, so enjoy it! I will be posting normally again shorty...

Thank you guys for pushing me to tell you whats been going on, and for praying for me...bless you.

How Sweet It Is

Well, here it is, May 15. Im in Victoria now for the summer...and so far it has been awesome! I awoke this morning at 5am to catch a ferry, went to Sunday morning meeting here in Victoria where I got showered with blessings, then I went to my new home, and could it be any nicer? Free long distance after 6pm and on weekends anywhere in Canada, my own room with new furnature, a TV in my room (which I probally wont watch, Im not a TV fan, but the fact its there is cool!), a beautiful view, their daughter, Samantha is 16 and really great...its awesome! And now Im about to listen to what Yahweh wants to say to a group which I am leading in 30 mins...I was just let known of this duty over lunch, but hey, I work well on the fly!

More to come later...I have ALOT to say...

Winners

If you recall, on a recent post I had talked about an competitive assignment from the War College. Well Jesus, Jaime Riefer and myself did infact win. Praise the Lord their was salvation, healings, and social justice accomplished amung others. Part of the assignment was to give prophetic words at bus stops, and I was encouraged to share this one.

Upon approaching a bus stop, Jaime Riefer and myself asked Jesus what He had to say to someone. We got a picture of a lily and a rainbow. Turns out the person at the bus stops name was Lily and we told her about Gods promises. It was encouraging for Lily, aswell as Jaime, myself and anyone who heard this story because it is always encouraging to hear victory stories.

What A Night

At the place I currently fight the war, we have this bi-weekly ministry called Street Combat...basically street evangelism. So I was partnered up with Jaime Riefer (whodathunkit). Before we left to meet the group and split, I felt the Spirit saying to bring along my guitar...this is not a common thing for me, ya I play guitar, but I am not a guitar player. So out of obedience I brought it along. As Jaime and I were walking, the Lord directed us into an alley. When we got it, I felt it was time to bring out the ol'12-string and just worship God. Out it came and I began playing 'Come Lord Jesus Come' little did I know that for the next hour and a half I would be playing the same song with the same chords...my fingers hurt today! Praise the Lord! Anyways it was time to meet back up with the group and switch partners...we didnt feel a release to leave (the alley was right where we meet, so we didnt have to leave) expressed our concern and continued just worshipping the Lord. Now, let me go a little deeper into this worship...it was good. Singing, shouting, dancing, praying in the spirit...let me remind you of the combo team...Jaime Riefer and I. There was power, we were creating authority, it was good...yet does not top what happened next. Oh ya during this we entered the Empress Bar and some guy said he was going deaf, we prayed for him and he said he could hear better, mind you his ears popped. So it was nearing 11pm when we all meet together, yet Jaime and I did not feel a release to leave the alley. I continued to play 'Come Lord Jesus Come' on my guitar and Jaime continued to pray in the spirit, while lying down on a Downtown Eastside alley...and this girl comes up to us and asks if we were Christians. We said "yes, are you" she said "no" and we said "would you like to" and she said "yes"-Praise the Lord. After some conversation and plugs for community, we had our release to leave the alley...it was 11:02pm.

A big thanks to Jaime, becuase it was out of her obedience and submission to the Lords voice we went to the alley and stayed in the alley.

And a big thanks to Yahweh to whom all the glory and victory of last night belongs too.

Raising the dead. Returning sight to the blind. Moving a mountain. Multiplying food.

I dont beleive that I can, but I beleive I could.

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Woohoo

My old Corps Officers are moving back to town!

Summer Time

Some of you may know that I was assigned to go to New York this summer...well that fell through.

However, I am going to Victoria instead.

Im excited!

And I Didnt Say Anything!

So I was taking out a friend to eat dinner at McDonalds. And as we enter there was a group of 7 or so handicapped people obviously on an outing with their group home, maybe saw a movie earlier and was now enjoying some ice cream. As we came in they were leaving. This dodgy guy was suspisiously eating a sundae, which was clearly an unfinished delicassy of the group described earlier. This group had left and this guy, lets call him Bob, was walking around the table in hopes of finding some left over food, maybe some change, and to his surprise a purse was left there. He glanced in it to see what valubles it held, glanced around the room to see who was watching him, then picked it up and put it in his jacket. He stole the purse from victomised people, I saw him do this...AND I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING! This guy was no professional. Everyone in the room saw what he was doing. Me and my friend were watching him closely disscussing his next move...AND WE DIDNT SAY ANYTHING! We let him bring injustice upon, what some may call an invisible person, and I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING. Not only did I not say anything...I also DIDNT DO ANYTHING.

Please forgive me Yahweh.

Would You Rather...

The only rule of this game is you have to choose one answer regardless if you would rather have neither...

Would you rather have....

lice or scabbees...

Would you rather have...

bed bugs or fleas...

Would you rather have....

bed bugs or cockroaches...

Would you rather go to...

Heaven or Hell....


In recent polls this has proven to be an effective evangelism scam...feel free to righteously steal it!

Faith Like A Child

I was teaching at Warrior Academy today. This is an extreme warfare christian preschool. Today our story was on Luke 18 where it says, "What is impossible with man is possible with God"

Do we really beleive that. I mean sure we will say yes. But really think about it. Do you truely beleive that if you see a blind man that God will return sight to him. Or if your dad is dying of cancer, do you truely beleive that he will get up and walk? Or you see a hungary widow and all you have is one slice of bread, yet you beleive God will multiply it into a sandwhich? Then why arent more blind people seeing, more dying people walking , more hungry people eating?

God grant us more faith please.

The Voice of Truth

Oh what I would do to have the kind of faith to come out of this boat into the crashing waves
Out of my comfort zone to the realm of the unknown where Jesus is holding out His hand

The waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me, reminding me of all the times I tried before and failed. The waves keep on telling me time and time again, boy you will never win.

But the voice of truth tells me a different story the voice of true says do not be afraind and the voice of truth says this is for my glory and out of all the voices calling out at me I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

Oh what I would do to have the kind of strengh it takes to stand before a giant. With just a sling and a stone.surround by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor wishing they wouold have the strenth to stand

And the giant is calling out my name and they laugh at me, reminding me of all the times I tried before and failed. The giant keeps on telling me time and time again, boy you will never win.

But the voice of truth tells me a different story the voice of true says do not be afraind and the voice of truth says this is for my glory and out of all the voices calling out at me I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

The stone was just the right size to put the giant on the ground and the waves dont seem so high when I look now and I will soar with the wings of Eagles when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus singing over me.

But the voice of truth tells me a different story the voice of true says do not be afraind and the voice of truth says this is for my glory and out of all the voices calling out at me I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.