26 December 2007

I dont normally do these - so I thought why not!

WITH 2007 COMING TO AN END. . .

1. Have you had any relationships this year? no
2. Have you had your birthday yet? yup
3. Kissed two people in the same night? nope
4. Been on a diet ? depends on your definition of diet
5. Pulled an all nighter ? many a times
6. Drank Starbucks ? again - many a times
7. Went camping ? only the most fun camping trip ive been on!
8. Bought something(s) ? nope - just kidding i dont think i could go a whole year not
9. Met someone special who changed your life ? no
10. Been out of the province ? yup - Washington, Florida, Chicago...
11. What are you thinking about ? loaded question
12. Hugged someone ? yes
13. Slept in someone else's bed ? lots
14. Got a job ? altogether - 3
15. Loaned out money ? yeah
16. Gotten in a car accident ? no
17. Gone over your mobile phone bill ? all the time
19. Done something you regret? yes

LAST:Last person to talk to you on the phone ? Cherie White
When was the last time you felt stupid ? right now
What was the last thing you yelled ? Merry Christmas maybe?
1. How many sibilings ? technically 0, but i like to say 4 - Joshua, Ciara, Noah and Dominic
Natural Hair Colour? brown
3. Initials ? NSB
4. Hair style ? long
5. Eye colour ? brown
6. Crushing ? nope
7. Pets? none
8. Mood ? bored (can you tell!)
9. Where would you rather be ? no where eles
10. What was the last thing you drank ? water

THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
1. Have you ever been in love ? no
2. Do you believe in love ? yes
3. Why did your LAST relationship fail ? immaturity
4. Have you ever been heartbroken? yeah
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart ? i doubt it
4. Have you ever fallen for your best friend ? yeah
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them ? yeah
8. Are you afraid of commitment ? no
9. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life? no

EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now? yeah
2. Are you happy ? not really
3. Are you eating anything ? no
4. Do you like someone right now ? nope
5. When was the lastime you cried ? last night

LIFESTYLE.
1. First thing on your mind when you wake up? anything from "im tired" to "im excited"
2. What time do you usually wake up ? 7
3. How is your relationship with your parents? could be better, has been worse
4. Are you a family person ? yes
5. Do you attend school everyday ? not in school
l6. Do you stay physically fit ? not so much these days
17. What sports do you play ? i like sports - dont play any regularly though...

I thought this whole thing was a reflection on 2007 - it wasnt really

Remind me to not do that ever agian.

Haha

25 December 2007

I don't have a whole lot to blog about...but it is Christmas so I thought I should write something.

Well -

Merry Christmas or Holy Incarnation Day if you prefer.

My Christmas morning involved opening gifts that were placed under the desk (we didn't have a tree) sitting on the cold hard Empress floor. It was ghetto and fun but I am looking so forward to Christmas 2008 in my new home. I move in a week - I cant wait!

After presents we went to the Whites for brunch. It was lovely. My favorite part was giving gifts to the kids though. So fun - I got one a fish - it is a blue fish - his name is Blue - fitting I must say. That was my favorite gift to give! Everything else was fun too.

I am looking very forward to the New Year though - it will be a good one. God has some great ideas up his sleeve. If anyone knows of sweet New Years Eve's parties Im looking for one.

Grace and Peace be with you.

Love,

Nicole

16 December 2007

We cannot fully live until we fully die. That means this full life, this Zoë life Jesus tells us about is not attainable until we surrender our sinful nature, until we wring the bad canary’s neck and throw him out of the cage. I’ve got to kill these things so that I can live. I have got to die so I can live. Death is life.

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23

It is one thing to die – to self so we can live in Christ – but if we don’t choose to live, what’s the point of dying?

Tim Hughes has a really powerful song called “See His Love.” It's a bit overplayed in my circle of friends - but none the less it still cuts deep into my spirit every time. Go on youtube and watch the video yourself, it is very powerful. The chorus goes:

This is Jesus, in His glory, King of Heaven, dying for me.
It is finished, He has done it, death is beaten, Heaven beckons me.

Death is beaten! Come on, that’s good news! Jesus died so we don’t have to. He took our pain and our shame upon the cross with Him. He died so we could live. Death is life. His death is our life. By not wringing the neck of the bad canary we are just as bad as those who placed the crown of thorns upon our Lord and who hammered the nails into His wrists. Every time we choose to choose death we are whipping Jesus’ back just like His accusers.

It is time to die so that you can live. Death is life.

09 December 2007

Get drunk.

That’s right I said it, get drunk. Two of my main points of this book are to die and to get drunk – wow, this life thing is awesome! Before you go and crack open that Kokanee, let me explain. I am not one to dream, but a few months ago the Lord spoke to me while I slept. I was at work, a Salvation Army residence called Grace Mansion and I was also babysitting. I was on one of the floors with three of my favourite kids, Joshua, Ciara and Noah White. We were worshipping together and I was getting lost in worship – but quickly came back to reality lest I neglect my job duties. There were also two glasses of wine in front of me. One of the glasses was a dirty mug filled with a cloudy liquid that looked almost mud-like. The other glass was a clean, pure, shiny wine glass filled with a mouth watering red wine that looked so good. They were both mine for the taking but I chose to drink out of the first one. This wine did not taste good. It was bitter and tasted like what I imagine the wine Jesus was force fed upon the cross tasted like. During our worship a couple guys joined us and one of them took the pure red wine and took it up to floor seven. My first reaction had nothing to do with the fact that he took my wine, but rather showed the legalism and religion in me for I responded with “hey, Grace Mansion is a drug and alcohol free building.” My old corps officer, Danielle, was in this dream too. She encouraged me to let go of responsibility and not let my wine be stolen. I responded with what about my job, what about the kids I’m babysitting and she said go; don’t let your wine be stolen. So, I went up to the seventh floor and when the elevator opened I was in a white room, like a bridal chamber, everything was pure and everything was white. Across the room on the window sill sparkling was the red wine, beautifully contrasted against the white room.

The first glass of wine represents the old covenant which brings death as the second glass represents the new wine which brings life.

The old written covenant ends in death, but under the new covenant, the Spirit give life. 2 Corinthians 3:6b

We have a lot to learn from Jesus, clearly. Specifically though, regarding old and new covenant, old and new wine. When Jesus was given wine mixed with bitter gall (which we identified is the old wine told about in my dream above) he refused to drink it. (Matthew 27:34). The book of John tells us that when this old bitter wine was placed on His lips was when Jesus famously said “It is finished.” Then he bowed his head and released His Spirit. The old wine is death. Jesus refused the old wine and when the old, bitter wine was placed on His lips he released His spirit. We too must refuse to drink this old wine. We too must refuse death. Not only because it is bad for us and bad tasting, though it is, but because we have something better right in front of us. The new wine or the new covenant (which brings life) is hand delivered to us. Jesus took a cup of wine and gave it to us. He says this is my blood, which confirms the new covenant. (Mark 14:23-25) So refuse death, refuse the old wine, when you are given sour wine on a hyssop branch from the thief, say “it is finished” to your sin and release your sinful nature. Reach across the table and take hold of the appetizing, thirst quenching red wine and drink up. Get drunk on life.

While I am talking about dreams here, I shall expand on another recent dream of mine. This time I was waiting for a bus. When the bus came I got on and my friend Lisa was there. She began to tell me that a few stops back some guy was stabbed and the police were going to question all of us. Sure enough at the next stop two men in uniform stepped onto the bus. One began to ask us all for ID and proceeded to question us. When it was my turn I gave him my ID and stated I didn’t know anything. The police man began to drill me with questions and asked for a sample of DNA from me. Although I was innocent I was fearful. I said to the police officer “hey if it helps, I wasn’t even on the bus when the guy got stabbed.” After saying that he let me go.

I asked the Lord for interpretation when I awoke, and he said “The truth has set you free.” I immediately paralleled this to my life and began to argue that, sure in the dream the truth set me free, but that’s because in my dream I was legitimately innocent, I legitimately did not stab anybody, whereas in my own life I am guilty for the things that are causing death within me. The Lord was quick to respond, reminded me that “He who the Son sets free is free indeed.” We are innocent because Jesus took our shame, our pain, our debts, our chains and our guilt upon the cross with Him. He has declared us innocent. That is the truth and the truth has set us free. I also think the ID part of the dream is significant. We must have our identity on us. We must wear who Jesus made to be boldly and surely. Our identity is in him – we are innocent because he has freed us. It is like the double jeopardy law. If someone served the time for a crime they didn’t commit and then go out and commit it, they can not serve the time again. We have all been given this double jeopardy grace gift. Jesus already served time for our sins. He already bought and paid for our debts. He already died for us. That is our identity – He who the Son sets free is free indeed and the truth shall set us free.

02 December 2007

Okay, this is a long one - and I've cut some of the more personal parts out so it may be a bit choppy....

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I’ve always wanted a niche. My friends all have them. Olivia’s is holiness. Matthew’s is politics. Noah’s is dolphins. This list could go on but the point remains…I don’t have one. I am thinking that maybe my niche can be life. Ya, I like that – life – that’s a pretty good niche to have! After all the last four digits of my phone number spell LIFE and I do have these sweet tattoos on my forearms that say ‘life’. They also say death, but the death part of this “book” will come later.

Okay, I guess the death part will come now. Another reason why I think my niche should be life is because I was supposed to die. I was an unplanned pregnancy and my mom had considered aborting me, but never went through with it, so even though I have been assigned death from the moment I was conceived, in my mere existence I am giving the devil the finger. However this assignment of death didn’t stop at the womb. Upon delivery my mom had to go an emergency c-section to save my life and in my teens I thought of taking my own life once or twice. But death didn’t get me there.

It’s kind of ironic that I am writing a “book” on life at the time I am, because this assignment of death is still at large, and worse I am letting him win. A few months ago I had my first personal encounter with a demon. I was sitting in my bed and a boney arm came over my shoulder and gave me a ‘friendly’ little tap. I felt very cold as he said to me “you are mine.” It wasn’t until a couple weeks later I shared this experience with someone and they discerned it was an assignment of death and paralleled it to Ezekiel 37, the valley of dry bones.

Jesus had an assignment of death over his life too. King Herod was on mission to search for Jesus and to kill him. What saved Jesus? Or better question – who saved Jesus? The answer is in Matthew 2:13-23.

After the wise men were gone, an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream. “Get up! Flee to Egypt with the child and his mother,” the angel said. “Stay there until I tell you to return, because Herod is going to search for the child to kill him.” Matthew 2:13

Then it goes on to say that Jesus’ parents left Egypt. And that Herod was very angry and he sent soldiers to kill all the young boys in and around Bethlehem. When Herod died an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph again and said that it was safe to return because those who wanted to kill Jesus are dead.

So who saved Jesus? The answer is two fold. 1) The Lord appeared to Joseph (Jesus’ daddy) in a dream and 2) His parents obeyed the Lord. Only the Lord can save. This is true for our lives. The Lord is the only one with ability to save us, with the ability to rescue us from an assignment of death. I was thinking of a way to explain this better, but there really is no need for it. It is a simple truth – the Lord is our saviour. I’m going to devote a whole chapter to spiritual parents and that is when I will explain the second point further.

Around the same time as my demon encounter I wrote a song, in the key of A minor for that emo feel, called ‘death unwritten’.

What is going on? What the hell am I doing?
Is there anybody there? Is there anybody there?
When will my misery end? And when will glory come?
Is there anyone who cares? Anyone who cares?

Life is death. Life is death. Life is death. Death unwritten.

In my brokenness I cry. And in my loneliness I die.
Hey can you hear me? Can you hear me?
In my brokenness I cry. And in my loneliness I die.
Hey can you hear me? (Cue screamers and guitar distortion)
CAN YOU HEAR ME?

Life is death. Life is death. Life is death. Death unwritten.

At first I thought I was singing in my self-pity but the more I sang it and the more revelation I got, the more I think that life is death. Look back to the picture of my tattoos. One arm says death and the other says life. If you look closer you will realise that they are actually the same tattoo only flipped 180 degrees. This tattoo is the image of “life is death”. (I actually only made reference to my tattoo’s because I wanted you to think I was cool)

The book of Romans zero’s in on this life is death policy.

Well then, should we keep on, sinning so that God can show us more and more of his wonderful grace? Of course not! Since we have died to sin, how can we continue to live in it? Or have you forgotten that when we were joined with Christ Jesus in baptism, we joined him in his death? For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may have new lives. Romans 6:1-4

And verse five really explains it well.

Since we have been united with him in his death, we will also be raised to life as he was.

So does verse eight.

And since we died with Christ, we know we will also live with him.

And eleven.

So you also should consider yourselves to be dead to the power of sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus.

Actually the whole chapter is pretty rad, take a moment now and read it yourself.

As I write this Heather Clark’s song based on the text from Romans 12 came on my iTunes.

I beseech you, therefore brethren, in view of the mercies of God,
To present yourself as a living sacrifice.

Another nice example of death is life. Our bodies are to be presented as a living (Zoë life) sacrifice (death).

So life is death. We cannot fully live until we have fully died. We need to die to ourselves to that we can live in Him. It is by dying to sin we are saying no to death. When we say no to death we are saying yes to life. This is pretty bizarre, I am writing a book on life, yet I am telling you to die.

How do we die to ourselves then? Good question! When you figure out the answer fire me off an email, nicolebrindle@gmail.com, and maybe I will write another fake book on that! While you are sending me an email, add me to facebook too! These are my bad writing skills at their finest, I’m getting off topic. Where was I? Right, how do we die to ourselves? I have a friend who likes to preach on the Allister Smith two-canary illustration. The illustration is as follows: we are like a bird cage with two canaries in it, a good canary and a bad canary. The process of dying to ourselves is merely an exercise in starving the one and feeding the other. My friend’s climax point is “don’t just starve the bad canary - wring its neck and throw it out of the cage!”

I’m going to take a moment and piggy back on Stephen’s climax. What does your bad canary represent? Addiction, fear, pain? Sickness, pride, money? Well, wring its neck and throw it out of the cage!