Nope, Im still here...I just havnt had much to blog about lately.

Added a few new bloggers to the blog roll...welcome abord Chella Clark, and Tasha Chooi (check them out to the right- good reads)

Hmm, wish I had something profound to write about...

Oh, I got to listen to the joyous sounds of "SPAM" (aaron white...i havent laughed that hard in a while...."its the blizzard of '96...let it snow") oh man good times!!!!

I have been thinking lately...when does hanging out and making friends stop being ministry...or does it....i guess what I mean, is it is easier to go to the mall, go for a walk with someone im discpling rather then make sandwhiches and go downtown with them. does this make sence?

So we began a VBS this week today...it went fantastic. First, God really gave us grace for it. But the coolest part of it was near the end. We had a fantastic day with no issues and we were just rounding everyone up together to have "closing cerimonies" which included songs, group games, memory verse etc. And we had music going while all groups were gathering together. Well, while the music is going...the children begin to worship...with no promting from any of us. They begin to dance...grab flags and flag worship...waice flags over eachother. Clearly I let this continue for a while. What a blessing it was. These kids taught me today the beauty of the Lords agenda.

After VBS I went through steps to freedom step #2 with a good friend of mine. I LOVE YOU ASHLEY MILBURN!!!. During this I was thinking. Once we get an understanding of how much Yahweh loves us, and his pure acceptance for us, it is really only then that we can be volnerable to others. You see, Ive only recenly myself broken out of this hiding, dishonest, deception place, and it was only becuase Ive only recently descovered how accepting Yahweh is...and because of that, Im no longer worried about what my friends will think or do, or what my leaders will think or do, becuse now my assurance and security comes from God. Again, this took me 6 years to understand, Ashley has this down in a couple weeks.

I am begining to be trusted with more and more responsibilities. And I think it scares me. I am scared I may miss the bullet, and not realise what I am being trusted with until its too late.

So recently I was talking with a friend and while we were talking, discerned that it was not truth, yet didnt call her out on it. I was trusted with something and I walked right by it. Im okay. Im learning how to follow through with dicernment and knowledge. Im learning.

But I think I like being trusted.

I never do this, and even when I do, I never blog them...
but this song was birthed from intersession. please pray for her.

She was with him and asked may I go
He said yes but take my blessing with you
She went on her way and treated his gift like dirt.
Now she is in trouble and she is hurt.
The Father says I welcome you, come to me
The Father says I welcome you, come to me

She is lost and she is scared.
She is poor and she is alone.
She doesnt know where to go
The Father says I welcome you, come to me
The Father says I welcome you, come to me

She is so far away so far away is she.
She is so far away so far away is she.
The Father says I welcome you, come to me.
The Father says I welcome you, come to me.
He says my arms are open wide, ready for you
The Father says I welcome you, come to me

She is still far away but coming near
He sees in the distance and begins to prepare.
He gets out his finest wine and sets her place
He puts on his finest robe and he awaits
The Father says I welcome you, come to me
The Father says I welcome you, come to me.

As she approaches he runs to her.
He wraps his arms around her neck and
His tears wet her hair.

The Father says you're welcomed here please stay with me.

(im still interestred in answers from the love and grace question. i know its annoying when i post two posts close together, especially when i want and answer to the previous one :P)

Ashley, Kath and Kathleen came to Vicotira this weekend...it was fantastic to see them...and in Kathleens case...to meet her. They came with zero holes in there noses...and left with one each...two of them kept/got the jewlery in!

The events of the weekend include a bonfire at the beach! This is my most favourate thing to do, if you ever wanna win my heart over...or for that matter simply make me happy, take me to a beach late at night and have a fire!!! I love it. We also went to the sooke potholes and waterfalls...i was in a waterfall!!! How awesome is that. Hmm what else did i do...oh we have a pet...its a hamster, we arent keeping her long (PRAISE THE LORD - im not the biggest fan of smelly rodents) we are babysitting it, and we have a new roommate...the Tasha Chooi - now I am a big fan of Tasha...(shes the other girl in my profile pic)

I was praying for a friend this morning and my friend is stuggling lots. And I asked Jesus what I am suposed to do. He said "be her love and her grace" I said, what does that look like and he said that love is her no and grace is her yes. Pretty profound is that Jesus hey! I guess like always I need to learn my boundries and seek wisdom as to when to do when. Yet I want to show love all the time, I want to show grace all the time. I want to do both...

How can I be her yes and her no at the same time?

(This is a legit question, im a tad lost!)

So Im diving into the gospels these days and the other morning I came accross the parable of the growing seed in Mark.

Not the parable of the scattering seed...man is that one so overplayed..haha joke....

Anyways, so the farmer throws the seed on the ground and leaves. Day and night the seed is at work, growing and getting ready to sprout, and the farmer doesnt even know it...then BAM one day the seed harvests and the crop is ready to harvest.

So we throw love out and leave it at that...no striving. Day and night love is at work, cultivating in peopels lives, getting ready to bring light, we dont even know it....then BAM one day our friend gets saved and is ready to be disipled.

On a different note, i think im getting somewhat sick...please pray i dont. Its in my throut and ears.

I dont really have anything all that excited to blog about...i just am becuase i know i wont be back at a computer till Sunday.

Till Next time....

Oy Vay! I know its been a while.

For the DL on Teen Camp check out Matthew Champs blog.

For some other cool things about teen camp not included in Matthews blog (as i dont wanna repeat anything) keep reading.

So in Vancouver I was one of the teen cell leaders. Teen Cell was probally the highlight of each week when I lived in Vancouver. It began with two girls Hannah and Domi, and by the time I left in May, we had probally about 20 contacts or so. 2 of these girls, Beccah and Crystal came along to Camp with us. These girls got saved! Hallelujah! God totally taught me about investment, relationship and hope. When we first got into relationship with people at teen cell, it seemed as if salvation was far on the list, darkenss, bondange and sin seemed to be so overwhelming that I guess I lost hope in salvation without even realiseing I had. Yet, after 9 months or so of investment in lives, and in prayer, and in faithfullness, and in showing Jesus we are seeing good fruit. I am really excited to see where God is going to take it.

Which gives me hope for our mission out in Victoria. Lately I have been stuggleing with a lack of hope. Darkness, bondage and sin seem to be so overwhelming that I guess I have allready lost hope in salvation...but seeing the fruit from Vancouver really gives me a new hope. I mean it took 8/9 months too see it out there, and we have only been here for 2. God, please accelarate salvation here!

Speaking of Salvation, my friend got radically saved the other day. She was involved in drugs, drinking, sex, and so young herself. Yet she layed it all down PTL! Here I am in relationship with her, thinking it will take a while to find freedom or whatever yet forgetting that God is big and can deliever on the spot! She has even allready quit smoking! Heck it took me 6 years after my salvation to give that up, she has done it in less then 6 days. I have seen more of her in the past 2 days then I have in the past 2 months becuase she is always over now or we are hanging out more, which definetly beats the alternitive.

K, last point I promise....
So my friend is being sexually harrased at work, she is underage and he is over 25. She does not like it, and neither do I!. There are some complications and fear on her part to speak up...and allthough I know I am held legally to this...I am not too sure exactly how to proceed. So upon praying about it I had a genious idea, well the Holy Spirit had a genious idea, for me to get a job there, having this confirmed by some godly and wise friends, including a dream I will do it and bring some righteousness and justice in the this situation.

Today was an awesome day!!!

It consisted of a great talk with a friend, getting really sunburnt, riding on the back of a scooter, having a chance to drive the scooter, hang out with a Revolution Session War College student (its not too late to join em... www.thewarcollege.com. Apply today!

Then the Salvation Army ARC is hosting 24/7 Victoria, and it just started today so I had my first shift in there. It was awesome. When i first got to the shift I wasnt feeling free at all, but broke through, danced a bit, and had a great time. One of the reasons I guess I wasnt feeling free to worship, is becuase the CD player had boring CD's and it was really quiet...and someone else was there who seemed to be "resting in the Lord"...so I grabbed out my iPod (oh ya, i got a free iPod!) and put the phones in, blasted the music, and danced like David...well not exactly like David!...But seriously I must have looked like a fool. Picture this...a silent room a Nicole with an iPod and headphones, Nicole with ribbon flags...and then Nicole dancing away to music only she can hear! In the middle of a mens rehab home. It was a great time, i realised how much I missed it! Im really excited. God is doing big stuff here in Victoria.

Oh and it was funny Im like a legend! (in a completly humble way)...Like the people who I releived and who came on after me asked me if I was the Nicole from Vancover...and then when im like ya?...tehy raved about how I was with the Vancouver Prayer room, somewhat akward at times ya.

Well Im off to camp tomorow morning. Im so excited, it will be a blessing!

Life is good!
God is good!

Maybe, since I wont be in town for the next week, i can be surprised with a millino comments upon my return.!!!

May the Lord shower you with grace this week.