I used to be so much more hardcore then I am these days.  I used to live in a slum hotel with bed bugs and cockroaches and no heat.  Now I live in a decent apartment bug free.  I used to be up all hours of the night praying, keeping watch, studying, now I complain if I don't get my 8 hours, and now I'm 'always tired' and the usual reason I don't get those 8 hours can often be because I am watching a movie or working.  I used to go out searching for that prostituted woman to rescue or inviting the homeless poor to crash on my couch.  I used to live simply, I now have a computer, TV, car and cell phone - and will jump at every opportunity to go shopping for more.

To clarify- I don't think it is a bad thing to live in a nice apartment with heat, nor do I think it is bad to get proper sleep.  I think having a car, computer or phone is far from evil.  It's just I've gotten comfortable in it, I've gotten selfish in it.  I've gotten the idea that I'm doing enough, and now it's someone elses turn.  I kinda thought I was immune to being comfortable.

I have often considered signed up for The War College again.  Jonathan Evans wont let me.

Now, I don't know what value there is sitting in this slump- this I used to do this, or I used to do that place.  But I will live up to what I have already attained.  I can still live where I live, and do it hardcore.  It just means I have to be more intentional about inviting my neighbours over.  I can still sleep a good nights sleep and be hardcore- it just means I have to be available to be woken up to pray at odd hours and to be a good steward of the sleep I do get so I can go out the next day and with the energy to do what God requires.

We are closer now to the return of Christ then we ever have been before.  

It would be a dangerous thing if I continued to not give my all to the Kingdom of God.  I know what the LORD requires of me.  I know what my "role" is and what I am supposed to do.  I know what kind of life the LORD wants me to live - it's time I started to live it.

I also think that integrity plays a key role in being hardcore.